How childish I am

How Childish You Are: By Timmy

well....
The only childish part about that i can see is that the way you speak
The expression and the laugh
even though you are braver than i thought (didnt even think that u were brave enough to stare at me!!!)
well sometimes our laughs might get a bit too loud
we still havent hear any complain from the crowd

No..... it doesnt bother me at all when you act that way
it's all in the personality and brain that make us sway
your smiles are soothing and your laughs are cooling
and your stares make my heart speeding

As what had been said and told
i'm going slow BUT wont letting it cold
gonna enjoy every second thats ticking
every minute thats passing
every hour thats lapsing

I wont be blinded by love
No, I wont go to that low
Will use lots of brain to make this happen
Will do everything which i havent

No, nothing about you rather than the way you speak
that somehow reach your childish peak
it's just sweet, it just pure sugar and honey
i'm more than happy to let it be

Baby, just be who you are
the experience of who you were
its brain and mentality that make us like each other
the rest are just bonus which sometimes we wun even bother
~End Of Crap~

Oh.my.god. Can you believe this? Written spontaneously like Touch n Go. Rhymes and makes sense (and sweet!). All done in 20 minutes! Oh.my.god. Couldn’t stop going “oh.my.god” cos it’s not easy to rhyme words, and it’s even harder getting them to make sense when you do. Probably only applies to me though. Doing the Star-Petronas and the Weng Seng’s retirement thingy took great effort. And all those stupid contests that I've participated in. Wow. Wow. Wow.

Btw, the author/ poet asks to ignore any grammatical errors, as it was done spontaneously like I said, straight from the brain into the keyboard. And also cos it was done in a moment of passion *rofl*

(Nothing to say anymore)

Received these 2 sms that day.
“..wasn’t sweet talking to you that day..”
“..have u is a boring day..”

They had actually been misunderstood. Cos I believe that I am still the nice and interesting person that I think I am!!! Figured out the 1st one (unless it’s meant to be what you understand it to be!) but the 2nd one still beats me.

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I don’t mean to be ungrateful. I really don’t.
People don’t use the opportunities given. Instead they rather take it the hard way and make their lives worse.
And I more don’t want to be hurtful.
I’m not worthy.
Sometimes I feel so annoyed.
Some people just don’t get the message. Don't have a clue.
Don’t push me. Don’t force me.

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Have decided not to publish the drafts on dates anywhere. Don’t feel good doing so =) But then what am I gonna do with all those drafts? Sell them to Harper and Collins?

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Had these delivered to the office. Only thought that this happen in Chinese shows. Think it was a blessing in disguise that it got sent to the wrong floor. So only Shikin saw it. Else, the whole of 19th floor would have been kecoh. Sweet and lovely, isn’t it? Hadn’t got this before. But could have been sweeter.. Hai.

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"Strange Relationship"

Listened to this when was with my ex. One of my all time favourites. Just want to publish the lyrics actually, and might as well put up the vid.

Do you love me?
Or am I just another trip in this strange relationship?
You push and pull me
and I'm about to lose my mind
Is this just a waste of time
keep acting like you own me
I keep running, watch me walking out that door
I hear you behind me

Gimme that strange relationship
Never felt pleasure and pain like this
Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong
I keep holding on
Gimme that strange relationship
One of us gotta let go of this
I keep pushing and you keep holding on
I'm already gone

Do you love me?
We break up and back together
And I swore to myself never
Oh how you do me
You strip me of my honor
And I don't ever think I'm gonna
Break free of these mind games
All I'm trying to do is modify my plan
'Cause I can't contain you

You keep acting like you own me
I can't control me
You said you never really wanted me back
Well maybe if that's a fact
May I suggest
A brand new plan of attack
And in defense of that you're hard to crack
You're way off track
I want you back, I want you gone
Maybe I'm sick of holding on

Of Work, Work and Thoughts

This week’s good.. so far. There’s only 2 days more to go and please God, let it be good. I wanna leave for Kuching with my heart at ease. Should be fine. Had spent the whole of last weekend working on a query that made me so stressed and considered quitting my job. Felt really awful. Slept at 5am for only 4 hours on both weekend days. Good thing that boss shared the same conclusion, though there was a bit of difference in research methods. Phew, had never felt so relieved before.

Then there was the training at last minute’s notice for a client. Boss always said that they’re the ‘biggest’ clients and now their ‘biggest’ man from this ‘biggest’ client is coming. Almost crumbled under pressure that morning. Spoke with Tim and chilled down a bit after agreeing with what he said bout people coming for training haha! It sailed smoothly in my opinion, but I dunno what they thought of me =) Boss even treated them to lunch. See how big they are? Shivers. And I got to tag along =) They referred to me as ‘small girl’ during lunch that day. Dunno if it’s good or bad haha.

Found this large chip. Large relatively, isn't it? Mum said "Like that also so excited!" In the background was the analysis that I was working on whole weekend. Tengah tension, can still eat chips huh?

Hilarious conversation

Guy : missing you? dont want to miss you anymore.. penat penat miss you and you never miss me back
Girl : WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Girl : wah i kena so teruk
Girl : so what u want me to do?
Guy : errr... miss me
Guy : i dun think thats something that can be forced... so...
Guy : well...
Guy : still.. u have to miss me

*rolling on the floor with laughter*

The hanky-pankying of a teacher


I get the kids do the teaching instead. And when I took the picture, my phone let out a loud “Chi chak, aahh…” (which could possibly sound like someone having a good time in bed). All 3 kids turn around simultaneously and looked at me. Couldn’t help laughing aloud. That’s why I get no respect from the kids!

“Kids say the darndest things” series

This newly-started series is the only reason I find joy in teaching, second to the money of course! Teaching is really not an easy job, I tell you. Newly profound respect for teachers. Managing 4 kids is hell, what about 40 kids in a classroom? Now, think of what a pest you have been to your teacher. I think I must have been a great one, cos what comes around goes around =D =D

Anyway..

Teacher (me) : Which is correct, Geetha and Cathy are clever or Geetha and Cathy is clever?
Tian Ning : No, Geetha and Cathy are bodoh!

Dunno if I should laugh or scold her. Tried to control my laughter cos if they see it, hell will break loose and they’d be riding me piggyback next. But it was funny =D =D

“Kids say the darndest things” series (and teachers too)

T.Ning again : Teacher, what is your hobby?
Me : Sleeping.
TN : Teacher, then what is your … (something in Mandarin that is out of my grasp)
Me : Hah, what?
TN : Cita-cita
Me : Oh. I’m so old already, some more want to have cita-cita?
TN : When you small that time la
Me : Oh, want to have a lot of sleep next time.
TN : You’re like a pig la!

What kinda student says her teacher is like a pig? Sekolah mana ni? Kurang asam punya budak! But yeah, haha. Agree =D Not enough sleep le.

It’s a pity actually. Cos some of the kids are bored. They said they wanna sleep. So do I. Then what the heck are we all here on a Sunday morning???

My eyes hurt


Saw this last Sunday while having lunch at a coffee shop. Check that bling out!! LOA, according to mum =D

Of winners and whiners

Kimi Raikkonen won the F1. I know it’s yesterday’s news but it was unexpected and padan muka for both Hamilton and Alonso. Bickering among themselves, who would be champion and then…? Ha Ha! Kimi was never mentioned anywhere and he won by 1 point!! Is that cool or what? Outta the blue and 1 point. Man!

Hamilton’s a winner and Alonso’s a whiner. Haha.

Count your blessings, whine less (very whiny huh?)

Whenever you feel life’s rotten, think the following:
You can see
You can walk
You can hear

Say each word in bold slowly, to get the meaning of it.

I once dreamt that my leg was amputated. Getting around on crutches or in a wheelchair’s so tough, and tkd? There’s just so much trouble getting to just 1 place. You’d never appreciate each step you take until you just imagine the hardship.

And you don’t have to wait til you think life’s rotten. Just be grateful for what you have. Like when you complain that you found a parking lot so far away, be grateful that you can actually walk. And drive. When you have no car and had to rely on public transport, you complain right? Now you can’t even get on public transport. How’s that?

Count your blessings. And I should probably whine less too. Life is more than Excel sheets and figures that don’t tally.

Long Raya weekend

Raya break..my my!

Wanted to bring my family somewhere far and different. Mum wanted to go to Melaka. That’s the only place that I know but I was really bored with it. But I dunno how to go anywhere else and dun have the guts to drive and get lost in Penang. Or in Cameron. Or in Bukit Tinggi. So the days were spend debating with myself whether to stick to the norm (Melaka) or to have some guts. And where to place my guts =)

Day One: Was supposed to head off somewhere already. Nothing. Ok, still have 3 days more.
Day Two: Still no plans. Pressure was at its high. Where else can one go with 2 days left? Not even Melaka can be covered in 1.5 days. Maybe come to the worse, if we end up in Melaka, we could go check out A Famosa. Mum was still pushing for Jonker Walk. Boring la!

Then there were 3 parties requiring my ‘attention’. All had to be entertained separately. Not that I could kill 2 birds with 1 stone and drag either one along on the family trip. 4 days, 3 parties and nowhere to go! Stressed and sos-ed (not sms ya) Suet to pour my woes.

At the stroke of midnight of Day Three, we decided to head to Bukit Tinggi! And the drive there will probably be the most terrifying one ever! Only Hatim knows =)

The road up there was winding and seemed never-ending. Someone told me that it’s not as winding as Genting’s. And this someone also gave me wrong directions and made me do a RM6 U-turn. Ok. It was fine actually until 8788 gave up on me on the way to Japanese Village. When I saw how steep it was, my heart fell to my ass. Forcing it up on 1st gear was like forcing a chicken to swallow cough mixture. So I switched to 2nd gear. 8788 just refused to budge! The speedometer was at ‘0’ and started to move backwards instead. Just refused to move! To the front I mean. Luckily there was no car at the back, or else: accident in Bukit Tinggi! So back to 1st gear and splutter splutter again. The engine seemed like it was gonna die off and I begged 8788 not to give up here! Not here in Bukit Tinggi! Maybe it has gained more momentum, so 2nd gear again. Not moving again! 1st gear: cough cough again. Started to hold up traffic. Asked mum if it’s getting warmer, why am I sweating?? When I finally parked and switched off the engine, I just leaned back and soothed my thumping heart and cold hands. Phew! Legs were shaking and had no energy already to explore whatever village they had to offer. (I can imagine someone jahat laughing already at this juncture)

8788, I know that I didn’t check your water and oil levels and whatever, but don’t punish me like that la…Do that once more and I’m switching you for an auto car. Brian will trash you even harder, in 2 years time!

Anyway, here goes. Suddenly enjoyed taking my own pics. Scary! Not sure if taken after someone’s obsession or trying to make the most of the torturous journey up there.

Mum's fav pic of B

Grapes!!

Weird hexagonal plant

Me and Tin Man!

B and the whole of Bukit Tinggi. Nice yeah?

The yellow roof is where we had lunch buffet and met Hatim, as you will see later.

Me in front of some place

Me and bro near the entrance

Me and some people.

A lame lady asked the guy "Where are you from?!" and he said "I'm from France!". Lame lady. Mum said he's probably from Klang too.

Me and swan a.k.a undan, taken by Hatimon

Bro in front of Rapunzel's tower

If you wonder why do I look unprepared in some of the pics, it’s because my bro doesn’t go “1,2,3!” when he snaps pics. He just goes “NOW!”. Good luck to you whatever you’re doing when he goes “now!”

Then Hatim showed up! Weird. Even weirder cos he knew I was there but didn’t bother to find out where I was, meet or say ‘hi’. He upped his price so high! So I had to reduce mine and asked him to come over. Anyway, we just said hi, bye, that’s all and went our separate ways.

The batang buruk that my mum asked him to come and eat =D Somehow batang buruk is now associated with him!

Bukit Tinggi is nice. Colmar though. The Japanese- dahlah torture people up to your village, there’s nothing there! Rabbit Park (or Rabbit City as my brother called it and Rabid City as my mum called it) is crap! The rabbits were so frightened, the kids were pulling them out of hiding and the rabbits are just so frightened. So sickened by the sight. Should just close the place, rabbit parks are not a good idea. Poor kids have never seen rabbits nowadays that you need to have a park. What next, cat park?? Probably only Hatim will visit =D

Summary: Raya was stressful emotionally, stressful physically (thanks to you, 8788!) and hectic! Did Ikea and the surrounding malls, I Utama and Pyramid twice in that 4 days! That’s a total of 6 malls plus Bukit Tinggi! And all 3 parties got their share! Bravo, champion!! Kaki mau patah, kepala mau pecah haha =D

Added these pics to showcase the beauty of Bukit Tinggi, after realising that the pics were all about me and me =)

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Drove round Botanic with bf. In daylight, the houses seem so ordinary, even yucky =)

Me : These are 180k? Dun want already la. Not nice!
Him : No money some more want to action? Fucker.

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Realised I was in deep trouble when I wiped out both my Hong Leong accounts last weekend. I am afraid, very afraid. I always had some money stashed in some account somewhere, and now there are none. No more. Contemplating using the money I set aside for my loan repayment.

Somehow, I think that I’m getting a fat paycheck every month and no longer think twice when I spend. Cos I spend on credit la =) But I’m not willing to return to my scrooge-y days. Still guard my money, but not super scrooge la =) There are things that I think my family and I deserve. Money can be made again. So that be it. And eat grass for the rest of the month.

And after wiping out both accounts, still couldn’t cover this month’s bills. Now be afraid, be very afraid!! Have to dig out from other accounts. And don’t you keep thinking that I still have more accounts ya? This is really the last one and I dun have any money stashed in some Swiss bank.

Of little fools, matters of the heart and toilets =)

What's this? It's clear roads on the Fed Highway! First time ever! That I couldn't resist and took a picture cos I know it might not happen again. Reached the office at 7.30am that day!

October got off to a horrendous start. In the first week, screwed up 4 out of 5 days. Got ‘tiao-ed’ 3 out of the 4 days, cos boss didn’t notice the mistake on the final day. Wasn’t really tiao-ed but just didn’t feel good. Brain wasn’t functioning well those days: Almost left the office wearing shoes of different pairs and then walked straight into a wall. And walked into another wall on another day. Gone bonkers. Too deep in thoughts?

Anyway, got this from May Ling. See, I don't steal stuff from people. I do give credit to them! (May send me pics from my own blog. Damn bengang)

People who do lots of work... make lots of mistakes
People who do less work... make less mistakes
People who do no work... make no mistakes e
People who make no mistakes... gets promoted
That's why I spend most of my time sending e-mails & playing games at work (in my case, I update my blog and chat online)
I need a promotion.

I feel better now =)

Weird Toilet Habits

People do weird things in the ladies. Not sure bout the gents. Definitely weirder =D But anyway, there was this lady drying her hair under the hand dryer. And there’s another who brushes her teeth there every morning. I mean, doesn’t she brush her teeth at home before she comes each morning? Then she just gets out of bed and head straight to work? Hmm…

And me?? I observe people in the ladies =D

Sadness, guilt and a dead end

It’s hopeless, totally hopeless. A relationship will not work based on guilt, memories and pittance. I want it to be mutual, not to avoid being the ‘culprit’ but I just want him to see and accept that it’s just not going to work. And the harder he tries, the more it revolts me. I dun wanna be a tutor for life. I don’t think he’s happy either, so why hold on?

What he did last Sat just rubbed salt into the wound. It so pissed me, honestly. But it was my fault for letting him piss me. Just didn’t have the heart to ..err..un-piss myself =D

Lewis Hamilton isn’t in the food business. Haagen Dazs does not sell ‘la mian’.

Part 3, 4, 5 and 6

And if you were wondering if there was a 3rd date as sequel to the 1st and 2nd, there is. Just that I’ve posted them elsewhere =) In detail and thoughts some more ;)

Tuition

Stuck at it is. Manager asked me to not talk about it! Continue the Sunday class and bye bye sleep. So I guess that the decision’s been made for me. At least if anything goes wrong, I dun have myself to blame!

And just to share what these kids say and do in class:

1)

Fool!

This is Jun Wei. He's the big buffalo that has to repeat each level twice and doesn't bring any book nor do any work. I dun care as long as he sits quietly. This is good already. See the book he's holding?? Would usually be either perched up on a 3 feet stack of chairs, under the table or lying on the table.

2) While teaching gender (male and female of people and animals) 1 day..

Tian Ning : Teacher, why girl and girl cannot marry wan ah?

Started to think of the best possible answer. If I were to say that they can’t have children, then the next question will definitely be “Then how boy and girl get children then?” Bigger trouble! So..

Teacher =) : Go back and ask your mother la!

3) Little idiots brought Mamee and other junk to class to eat. Think it’s a party ka? Anyway, Ching Yi was pouring the Mamee seasoning into her mouth. Tian Ning said (in Mandarin), “You can’t eat that wan ah, your hair will fall off wan ah!!”
And itchy mouth me said, “Yeah, Tian Ning last time ate all these powder, that’s why became like that” while pointing to this!

She was speechless. Finally she said “I tell my mother!” *rofl*

4) The syllabus introduced the word ‘kiss’. They asked what is that? So I made hand gestures to err.. simulate it =D The next thing Apple said is “Teacher, you and your boyfriend kiss ah? Eeyer….!” and all laughed. Hey! Guess what goes around comes around. But they started it first!
So please, if you can help it, do not sms me when I’m in class. Or else, Apple’s itchy mouth will say “Teacher’s boyfriend sms!” and when I reply, it’s “This teacher ah, always busy with handphone boyfriend only!” Kena teruk from the kids. Pity me.

On the right is itchy mouth Apple Lee. Her sister is Cherry =)

Visa Flex

The first principal card I own. And a very ugly one too!

And too bad that Tim had helped me remove the pic. Had people saying that it isn't safe for it to be here but when Timmy sent a msg in the middle of the night that he had just noticed it there, I freaked out and had him remove it there and then. Since it was a Friday, I can't stand it being there the whole weekend and will make me can't sleep,so had Timmy remove it for me.

Anyway, it’s so revolting that I dun dare take it out to use. Looks like a Jusco card instead. And btw, Maybank’s call centre really sucks. They dun have the number to press to activate it and getting thru to a personnel is like trying to find a bag of gold in a drain.

Haven’t decided where to go though I’m already off tomorrow. Feel like wanna have a sleeping marathon but it’s the first time my classes are off the whole weekend! Long weekend, will be a waste if I stayed home. We’ll see. Selamat Hari Raya everyone!!

Buka Puasa at Paya Serai, PJ Hilton

Back! Last Thursday, boss belanja-ed us for buka puasa cum dinner. Not sure if it was him or the company who forked out RM 95++ per person but after the dinner, colleagues were thanking him. Somehow I wasn't really in a mood and walked straight out =p

Anyway, more interested in uploading the pics than words..

from left: Mui Siew (the other client service), Sherly (TV Events), Lai Wah (TV Events too) and me!

Shikin, me, Lai Wah and the other 2 doing hanky-panky at the back

Shikin and me again. She kept wanting to take pics with me the whole night. Wei..I'm straight!

Lily, Ermma and Fida

And finally, the much-awaited-and-much-talked-about James! He must pose with every food item.

Mum said he's actually 'not bad looking'. You think so?

This time it's with the oysters.

Caught off-guard and the classic 'pin chui'!

My first round. Shikin's currently using this as her Skype pic.

Cake and pancake. Note the amount of honey I drizzled onto the pancake. Til overflow!

Maybe I didn't bond with Malay food, so I have nothing to say about the food. I didn't even know what certain things were! But there were some stuff worth mentioning like rempeyek, apam and putu piring. Hello, we can get that at the pasar malam! Rempeyek? Come on.

But I didn't manage to buy rempeyek last Sat while shopping with.. woops, almost tersasul! See if there's fate, else no rempeyek this Raya =D