There’s a reason for everything that God make happen

When you don’t update your blog fast enough, your draft is no longer valid. At the time being, life isn’t that bad anymore (financially). So I have to start from scratch.

What’s left that isn’t going out as planned:

My day job
Have sent application but not a single news from any of them. My preferred location and company leave me with not many choices as it is.

What had already went on smoothly since this morn:

My UPSR questions
All accepted. Had prepared close to 100 but risked being rejected due to change in requirements.

My Saturday morning tuition
Replacement classes wanted, not replacement teacher. Job secured for now. Thursday night classes in hand too.

So financially, it isn’t that bad after all. Was being on the verge of depression again last weekend due to the above not materialising. Now only awaiting job offers and my weeknights classes. Quitting Sunday morn classes wasn’t so bad after all. My luck isn’t that bad after all; maybe I don’t need that lucky crystal bracelet or I can continue criticising people since that karma doesn’t scare me for now.

At times I feel like giving up on all this bloody caboodle, at times I feel like punishing myself and working so damn hard til I’ve no energy and no time left to think. Sometimes I feel like God’s playing games with me. I think that isn’t right, so I shall rephrase that: I think God is giving me many challenges. Ok, so that’s better. Like I’ve always said ‘There’s a reason for everything that God make happen’. Yeah, it’s said to console myself but then after some thought, why would God unfold unhappiness among humans? There’ll surely be a reason. Like if you are jobless, He probably wants you to take a rest. So that was what I was telling myself last weekend.

At times I feel like leaving this whole stupid merry-go-round and go far far away. No mood, no strength, no energy for any more of this. But then, should I pick myself and work my ass off instead of wallowing in pity at home? No strength, no strength..

And I just got this in the mail : Never give anyone the authority to hurt you or make u sad… Happiness is not what you do or how you do it… IT’S THE WAY YOU THINK… So, Think Happy & Stay Happy… “Keep Smiling…” I am What I AM..

Whatever, I don’t give a damn, though after bothering to read it, it makes sense. Whatever. The whole caboodle pisses me off. You can call me PMS-y for all I fcuking care, cos assholes attribute every fcuking thing to PMS.

Yesterday,
all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it look as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday

Suddenly,
I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me oh,
yesterday came suddenly
Why she had to go I don't know,
she wouldn't say I said something wrong,
now I long for yesterday

Yesterday,
love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
oh, I believe in yesterday
Why she had to go I don't know,
she wouldn't say I said something wrong,
now I long for yesterday

Yesterday,
love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
oh, I believe in yesterday

Gettin teary at work is just not a good idea.