...#3

I dunno what to say anymore. Just got my 2nd slap. The things I have said complicate things and possibly make people misunderstand too. But if things happen, then I suppose that it happens for a reason. Surely God has a reason for making things happen. Sometimes I speak like a religious person but I actually do want to embrace religion.

Dunno if I should explain things. Just too tired to explain. Tired of saying it over and over again but I guess that people are also tired of listening to it over and over again. Thought that I have made it clear but it isn’t. Thought that summarizing 5 years in a day’s words is acceptable as a recuperation effort. Am I supposed to be even colder-hearted than this? Then I asked people to do things but when it’s being done..? Done but not for this reason, not this reason, not this reason. Thought that I have said it over and over again. Not this reason. But I guess that people are pissed, pushed to their limits and just sick and tired of me and the problems that bug me. Yes, I do understand suffocation and the feeling of having weights around your neck.