Dim sum is always good, cos it’s one thing that we both enjoy and have always done together. And then Baby Sue was having a fever and sore throat, so we went to see a doctor. We spent about an hour at The Curve before heading to KLCC area to pick up some stuff. Being the workaholic boyfriend, the next destination was Timmy’s office where we had to climb 4 floors up in dainty slippers with laptop, only to find that the pass card was in the car. It reminded us sharply that the marathon is in March next year =) And I was so happy that Timmy wanted to grab something to eat before heading home. It meant more time spent as lately we don’t have dinner together. An attempt to persuade him to go to the pasar malam was futile but roti canai had never tasted so good, other than the one at sweet Haja.
Being everywhere together was nice; it gave a feeling that we are together through thick and thin. Like ‘I will be with you no matter where’ =) A special part was when I asked Timmy if I could take a look at his documents. He said “Your boyfriend is (going through a big change in life). You need to look at it” Yes, I am part of Timmy. At this stage, we still somehow ask each other for permission, I don’t know why and don’t know if it’s good or bad. But I think it shows respect?
The pc fair was good too. Somehow going somewhere out of the norm was good and KLCC was the place that we first met. The fair was crowded but it was good chance to do things together. And then we further spend time installing Vista Ultimate and other stuff in the laptop, all taken care of by Timmy while I just used it when it was ready. That’s the benefit of having a technical manager bf, give him a Freedos laptop and all is ready =)
And this is very dear to me:
Timmy got this Starbucks planner for me when he got one for himself. 1 for Timmy, 1 for me. Timmy had me in his mind when he got one for himself, his girlfriend who likes to write things. I treasure it so much not only because it is unique, beautiful, old school and its cover is made of leather, but it signified a gesture that is like.. I was there in his mind.And the leather cover is so soft that it feels fresh from the cow =D Have yet to use it yet cos it’s too nice to write anything in it. I just write crappy blog drafts and UPSR questions which are more worthy to be on recycled paper =P
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I salute those who are in a distance relationship.
Some can, some can’t. Actually I only know one who can and one who can’t. Over 350km, OHY gave up a 7-year relationship with PCH. Despite being well liked, he has been single since then for the past 6 years. I don’t know anyone who is in a distance relationship but Lawrence comes to mind. I admire your strength and am glad that finally your dear dear is now here with you =)
Timmy deduced that older people cope better. I dunno how true is this but I only have 2 case studies above, which seems to support the theory but it is really too small a sample size to study.
It's hard when you miss someone so badly. Thank God that the person is with you, for the pain would be more if you yearn for someone yet not 'allowed' to sms him, for he no longer feels the same about you. At least I'm lucky that I'll eventually see or speak to Timmy, after missing him a lot.
There are 3 types of missing:
Level 1: Cheerful
Sms sample: Miss u!
Level 2: A lot
Sms sample: Timmy, miss u la.
Level 3: Very very much
Sms sample: Timmy I miss u :( Like the emo, this one sometimes ends in tears.
Sometimes I wonder, only 40km separate us. It’s not that one of us is in Melaka or something. I am thankful for that. But we don’t meet, so being here or in Melaka doesn’t make much of a difference.
It’s torturous. It just feels so far, and it’s going to get further. How often do people meet their boyfriends exactly? Those that I know of, friends and others, either meet every day, almost or live together with their boyfriends. Being in a relationship but not seeing or speaking properly, doesn’t really seem to be in a relationship.
It’s like holding up, pent up and confining things to yourself. When you finally share something, the excitement has gone. Like good news, opportunities, offers and happenings. If you even remember to share at all.
It’s only 40km. But are we getting too busy for each other?
I wear my FCUK everyday; it makes me feel that Timmy is close by. It feels that it’s the only thing that links me to him, that reminds me that he is still there.
It’s stupid that you miss someone right after seeing him. I dunno if it’s due to a week’s worth not satiated, the time was too short, the uncertainty of when you are going to see him again or the thought that you are not going to see him for another 6 days. Then you start counting Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. And it is only Saturday night now. It just seems so far away.
I’m not coping. If I am, I would have cos it’s already 2 months now. I miss him most in the mornings as soon as I get up, and sometimes after seeing him. Other times, it’s bearable because I just don’t think of him because there is no point thinking and yearning for someone not accessible.
How can you miss someone until you cry? Is it due to too much love?
I know he loves me, he says he is always with me, and he misses me too, but maybe not as much as I do. He says he loves me more than he misses me, but for me it’s the other way round. Whatever he says, sort of a contradiction there. But just why do we punish ourselves like this? Why don’t we just go and see each other?
It’s not so far, but it seems so far...
Once again, sleeping is the best remedy, though of late it doesn’t help much anymore once I wake up.
What do people do when they miss someone so badly?
I don’t feel like doing anything right now, but to go home and sleep and am feeling utterly bored and sleepy.
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