Confession

I have a confession to make. Just wanna confess but not confess the whole story to anyone haha.
For love, I have:
1. Told lies
2. Hidden the truth, i.e not telling the full story
3. Told no truth nor lie, i.e not saying anything at all

I list those in the order of most sinful to the least sinful, in my opinion. The lies are just little tiny lies actually. Won’t hurt, harm nor kill anyone. It’s just that ‘lies’ seem to be an awful word right? Ok, lies=not-truths then. Looking ‘lies’ up in Word’s thesaurus gives you worse options!

I tell not-truths to reduce noise and trouble, to not anger people nor hurt them and to give myself a wee bit of happiness. See? So my lies are good actually, they reduce noise pollution and hurt in people’s hearts. And make me die a happier person too. So probably I should do it more often =D

Anyway, the main point here is to confess the latest thing I did. It falls in the lowest category, which is “told no truth nor lie’. Eh, there were lies involved. Oh no, there weren’t. It was totally legal and even had certification for it. So, it’s in the 3rd category and it’s the least bad.

I didn’t do anything wrong! It’s just that I felt a bit bad doing it. Hiding the truth by not saying it. Heck, there wasn’t any single lie involved! I just didn’t mention it! Ok, so it wasn’t so bad after all. But heck, I didn’t even do this when I was in school! Felt so embarrassed, and young again =)

I didn’t lie ok, I just didn’t say the story! And in fact for everything I said that day, every single one of it is the truth! Total truth.

Ok, actions justified. And I so loved it!! Love it and wanna do it again, but might not! What’s becoming of me, angau already ka, haha!

This is one guy who has girls proposing marriage (after just speaking to him!), not letting go and seeking attention from him. There has to be a reason why, and I can so see the reasons. He’s a nice guy (Huey said so too), though he always makes it seems that he isn’t but insists that he is on another day.

Things I love about him/ that fascinates me :
1. His brain. This probably summarizes everything below. I mean, the brain controls actions, emotion and thoughts, and that makes (or breaks) a person, right?

So ok, this shall be renamed to ’Things I Love About His Brain’

1. The way and speed that he thinks things. He did say that he is a dual processor =D He just think things differently from other people. And when something extraordinary happens (or when it doesn’t go the way I like it), I ask him “What is wrong with you??” (!!)

2. He knows everything from computers (the main thing) to cars (2nd main thing, or maybe the other way round) to music to movies to food to science to anatomy to those things-that-are-unmentionable here =D (Think he’s gonna thump me. I said thump ya, not hump. This Crystal’s fault la. Think she’s gonna thump me as well) He knows everything that I talk about, though the same can’t be said for the other way round =p

Those things that he does on the pc really do make my jaw drop (really, not literally) cos I haven’t even seen what has he done and …it’s done! This is the guy who, when my boss is expecting something out of me, tries to teach me Excel online til wanna vomit blood, taught me how to download songs when Ares got blocked but still I can’t get it and edits my blog when those stupid HTML things kill me. See, I can’t even manage my own blog! An interviewer (I followed him to an interview hehe..) asked him straight in the face “Are you a geek?” (!!) but after the interview, she said that he looked like a rock star (?!?!!) And I made a fool of myself several times too like when I said Chad Kroeger doesn’t sing anymore, my work email site has no ‘https’ and Internet doesn’t need electricity. Then he will go “baby..” HAHAHAHAAA, malunya. Will try to keep my mouth shut more often in future. But really, I checked again. The site is http://mail.agbnielsen.com.my/, no https, totally pasted from there, so no mistakes. Not doink.

He even supports MY company by doing some programming til some colleagues know him by now. Shikin went ‘Wah…’ and started asking if he is good-looking while James got jealous and said that the programme isn’t good, when he himself has yet to come up with anything and we are now still using Timmy’s =)

3. He writes poems!! Omhg. And lately due to my influence, he has put those skills to good use by taking part in contests. Dunno if it is a good thing, as I have 1 competitor more now. But I make him give me everything he wins (if he wins, it’s only been 2 so far and the results are not out yet), so I guess that it is good =p And if you know me well enough, you would know that I’m into these rhyming things as well, so we are currently swooning each other with goose-bumping poems. No la, it’s actually only him. I’m only good at the slogans that kiss the organisers’ asses

4. He used to contribute a sizeable amount to some schools needy kids in Sarawak. How shweeeet….This coming from a guy who looks tough on the outside and annoys people (including myself) all the time.

5. He made the effort to wrap my birthday present differently. Dunno why this really touched me. It’s the very small things that … (can’t find the words) He pays attention to these small details. And he wrapped it himself, awww… Cos from experience working in Fragrant Garden, guys always come with their gifts to be wrapped. Which was how I met Jes =p And was totally surprised cos those patterns were exactly what I did when I was working there. I used to work in a gift shop, but him? But mine were nicer, of course =p

6. He asks when it came to a particular certain thing. It was so respectful and I so respect him for it. A true gentleman.

7. He thinks of my family when he does things and make decisions.

Head is swollen with love already , can’t think of anymore at the moment. =D Will update when there’s inspiration.

Hey, why the heck am I doing this? That fella’s ass is gonna swell like a baboon’s til it can’t fit into his crease-free pants. Oh ya, I was initially trying to justify my latest actions that fell into category #3 and then started to err.. be lovey-dovey.

For Lovey-Dovey Part 2, follow the journey of my “Magic Bean”. We each bought one at Pyramid that day.

Day 1

Somehow forgotten to take a pic before planting the bean. Now it's buried under the soil already =)

Day 5
Something whitish is coming out. Timmy’s stalk had come out already at this point, despite planting it only a day earlier than me. Reason: Kiasu-ism that made him stick it halfway out of the soil and then feeding it with ‘natural ammonia’.

Day 8
There's a stalk and it's wearing a hat too!

Day 11
There are leaves!

See, it's completely organic and I don't use any pesticide, thus the hole in the leaf

And while I’m at it, I might as well list down my resolutions. Not for the New Year, but to be done with (preferably) immediate effect. Those New Year things are supposed to be grander involving work, money and becoming a better and richer person. But am in no mood for that at the moment: being wacky now, bored with work (bored til something happened yesterday!) and am going to be more broke now after giving up 1 class.

So, the resolutions:
1. Eat less. Seriously. Wanna eat less and not be greedy anymore. But food is so good! Omg, how ah?? Might postpone to next year, with just less than a month to go and after that will repent. Wanna stuff (not ‘starve’) myself and have my Kim Gary first.
But thinking of the amount of food I ate lately is scary. Aiya, how ah?? See first la =p

2. Keep my mouth shut. One, it’s some what related to the stuff above =D Don’t want Timmy to go “baby..” anymore (romantically yes, but doinkily no) but what is more important is, my lack of Chinese has resulted in me saying things that offend people. I’ve heard people saying it before, so I didn’t know that it was a bad word. Or is it that I have been mixing too much with people who spew profanities like no one’s business? Yeah, guess that must be it. Cos I said something, in fact twice, that offended James. One was out of ignorance, another was wrong pronunciation. It’s a whole lot of difference! Poor him. Felt so so bad. Even my mum scolded me. Must really stop speaking my horrible Chinese anymore. Even said something this afternoon that seems kinda rude. Really have been mixing too much with the wrong crowd.

That’s all folks! Thanks for enduring my crap and have a nice day =)