I could have

I could have died, I could have got mugged, I could have got into an accident, I could have got abducted, I could have got raped, I could have been murdered, I could have been fighting for my life, I could be fighting off an attacker, I could have been wanting to say my last words.

Would anyone notice my absence? Would anyone know? Would anyone care? Would anyone come to my rescue? Or would they only come when it's too late? Would they regret it then? Or is there nothing to feel sad, guilt, regret or loss about?

I've been talking about getting my EPF nominations done but it's still not done. I wanted to leave my ATM pins behind but still haven't done so. I don't want the money I worked so hard for go to waste; I want my family to have them easily without a fight.

I am tired, I am so fcuking damn tired but I am for sure, sane. Tiredness is my body but I can assure you that I am 100% sane.