I am not a people person. I am very well an introvert, but all the jobs I get are dealing directly with customers. I dunno as well how I ended up in the current position. I just grabbed it at the sound of the company name. Banking is all about dealing with people. Ok, I rephrase that: Banking in branches is all about dealing with people. Banking in the HQ could be behind the scenes doing research. Well, that’s what I get for opting somewhere nearby, isn’t it? But my current offers aren’t exactly near also?
I am not that keen for Stan Chart. How now, I haven’t even started but am not keen already? Is it because of my current mood where I am tired and not in a good mood? Maybe after a rest and a self prep talk, I’ll feel better.
To go or not to go? Why bother even checking it out if I don’t like the job? But neither do I like the Stan Chart one. Since I don’t like both, I might as well take the nearer one. Hai.. I just can’t deal with people. At the current state where there is so much anger within me, customers aren’t exactly a good idea. With my mentality that customers are always dumb, it’s gonna be a battle.
Hate!! Hate!! Hate!!
In the mean time, I shall stand up and be strong. No more relying on others. It is quite sad to live in solitude but .. what to do? Seems like I'm blogging more often these days though there are no happening happenings but just ramblings and negativities. Hope I am not sinking into depression.
I do miss my old self, I do. I want to be my old mad self.
In the mean time, I have already resigned. So is that the reason why I don’t feel like doing anything? I just don’t feel like doing anything, I don’t feel good, I feel kinda rotten but I dunno why. My whole body is aching, now I know why. My neck and shoulders are always aching. Another 1 month+ to go and you ask me to run ES and test new version? Kanasai.
When is this all going to end? What is going to end in the first place? Will happiness continue to elude me? How can I be thankful and happy but be the opposite the next?
I will not undertake any Science tuition anymore. I know nothing about it and I have no time to read anything about it. It is so damn torturous faking something you don’t know.
I am just so very tired… :( I just live 1 day at a time.
Dunno if I should look forward to Wednesday. I don't like the day but I would get a day of rest. But there's an interview that I don't really enjoy the job, so there is still no day of rest. Will September quickly come to an end? Will the first week of October quickly come to an end? I don't like all of you. Go away, go away, go away, annoying.
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