I survived another week

OMG, is there gonna be a 'I survived another week' post every week? Survival of a week is very joyful to us here at Toyota. Maybe only to BB's team, I dunno.

I am just unfortunate that I have a boss who..

a. has stupid ideas.

I don't give a damn if she keeps her stupid ideas to herself but her stupid ideas waste our time preparing proposals and simulation only for them to be shot down by higher management. Having our outlets' staff put their hand across their chests and bow is downright a stupid idea. Thank God it was shot down, and thank God further that I am not the one preaching this stupid idea to the outlets.

b. has poor time management and management skills

I dunno which of her skills are stupid (or maybe she has none at all) that makes her makes us do things at the last minute. Sylvia said that her own work isn't done, which is why she doesn't look at ours. When she does, it is already so late and it is the norm to be still working on reports 2 hours before a meeting. Which is why she is the only person who has to occasionally skip lunch and the unfortunate us have to do it as well.

c. has a stupid personality

She doesn't give you amendments once and for all. I have been working on just 1 paper for the past 2 days, doing amendments over and over again.

I just felt so drained today. After all the calculations, simulations and tons of sorting and vlookups, I was really drained and demotivated to have to change things over again. It is not just a simple change; so much work has to be done. And getting her approval is bad enough, hopefully it doesn't shot down by superiors later on. Syl's proposal died today too and BB had the cheek to say that she pities her.

My past 3 reports at council meetings were not even presented. BB isn't in a position yet to know what higher management wants. I expect that when she approves my stuff, it means that I am doing the right thing. Heck, she even touched up on the report formatting. And Fiona had the cheek to tell everyone that it was my 1st time doing reports, when she, BB and the GM themselves had approved it.

Just so tired and disappointed to have your work, done over and over again, go down the drain.

Let me tell you a classic story: BB asked "Why don't you call the customer to find out what promotion was offered to them?" But when I did, she said "Well, I didn't ask you to call the customer. You called, you take the responsibility". I did not misunderstand nor heard wrongly, for Sylvia told me days later that she heard it too.

Another classic story: I gave her a letter for approval. Returned with amendments. Changed it and got Khai to print it out. Returned with amendments again. Changed and Khai printed it again. Finally she said that she doesn't need this letter at the moment. When the time comes, more amendments will have to be made to the date, reference number and figures. Khai said fuck her la.

d. no respect for her staff

Every human needs to be treated with dignity. We are in the corporate world, there is no need to be rude and sarcastic. There really is a problem with her when her staff starts referring to her as "gemok", "bengong", "bloody bitch", "1st class bitch" and "motherfucker".

She shouts when she is actually in the wrong. Once, she insisted she is right, and trying to argue with me, she opened the file and said "You see!" and immediately shut up cos she saw that it was her mistake.

She said that I had busted our budget. I wasn't sure what was her exact amount but I knew that mine was lower than her proposal. If only I had the exact figure on my fingertips, I would have answered her there and then. My 21k busted the budget. Hers was 31k. An extra expenditure of 40k per annum. No wonder Fiona said she is bad at budgeting. And I didn't even know what the allocated budget was but she definitely did. I thought of reminding her what was her figure after I got it, but decided not to pursue the matter.

I don't give in to her anymore. I say what's on my mind and speak up if I think if I am wrongly accused of something, knowing how well how fickle-minded she is (in Syl's words). I don't bother being polite anymore. After all, she was the one who said that we should question things. Today, she said "Did your mother tell you that you like to 'pok chui'" (lawan cakap). Serves her right.

It is very lowly for one to ask people to greet her. If you are well-liked and respected, people would naturally say hello in the morning. Instead, her BIG presence is met with groans. And if no one wants to greet, this buffalo woman actually asked to be greeted. No words to describe her.

e. is plain stupid

She works hard, not smart. Fiona her boss told me not to check each data one by one as it is well, stupid work. Hafiz laughed and said that my work will never be done if I were to check thousands of forms, that a sample size is good enough. He then told his boss the stupid things that my boss asks me to do. I have a feeling that she is all out to get me, for the only 2 occasions that I asked my Admin Asst (AA) to help out, she insists that I do it myself. Those were stupid work like calling hundreds of people to ask them if they can log in or where their cars are at. You don't need an exec to do this and it is not my task to contact customers directly as well.

She approved a report and then asked why didn't I question it. When I question things, of course she is unhappy and said "Just do it" (which was checking thousands of forms when someone has already done). Don't you think she is out to get me? I must reiterate that this is too petty for an exec's job and I don't even want my AAs to do this kinda work as well. It's just not productive. The AAs are doing too much hard work that they are so burnt out.

Back from tuition and ready to call it a week. But not really until I finish the tuition classes tomorrow. Hai.. when I am just about to think that I can sleep late cos I can sleep in tomorrow, nope I still have to drag myself out of bed. Tired tired tired, both physically and emotionally.

Emotionally: Having to pretend to stay late at work when I really can't. Let's not go into why we should stay late cos I'm too tired to debate at this time of the night. Sometimes there is really work to be done but when we don't enjoy being in the office, Syl and I are just dying to get out safely from the building, into the safe confines of our cars. Having to pretend to stay while worrying that I'm gonna be late for tuition is just well.. pretty stressful. Rushing for time is stressful, sleeping at night worrying about work and seeing visions of Excel sheets in my sleep is really wearing me out.